The Light in Your eyes

A couple of weeks ago, I was almost asleep one night when these words started running through my mind….It’s been a long time since I had written anything but I got up and wrote the words down… Here it is, without any editing. just raw feelings. :)

The Light in your eyes
Causes me to arise

From a place of despair
That’s been empty and bare

I’ve known from the start
If I gave you my heart

You would rearrange
All that’s kept me encaged

O Lord You heard my cry
From your Holy place so high

You came and brought low
Yourself so I might know

The joy that can be found
As I become unbound

Now I answer Your call
Standing under your waterfall

As Your love floods my soul
I’m beginning to know

There’s nothing too lost
That You cannot restore

So I choose to fix my eyes
Upon the greatest prize

The Author and Perfecter
Jesus Christ, my Light

The chains that held me bound
Are no longer to be found

Because You’ve touched my soul
I want the world to know

That You are a God who saves
Who always comes to the aid

Of the lost and lonely, weary ones
The broken and afraid

A prayer from a heart of gratitude

Jesus is my Rock, my Redeemer. My fortress, my Strength

He is the calmer of my storms, the only One who can silence the waves as they threaten to overtake me.

Nothing can touch me which does not first pass through my Father’s hand. Almighty and Victorious, Yours is the name that I praise!

Unresting, unfailing, your justice is like the mountains. High, soaring above all other powers.

You are good and your mercies endure forever, God!

Jesus Christ, you have given all of yourself. In return, I give all of me

Great Father of Glory! Great Father of Light! The splendor of your glory never ceases to amaze me. You give strength to the weary and to him who has no might, you increase it. You cause me to soar on wings like eagles, far above the storms of this life. I will wait upon You, God!

Truly, You alone are God! There is none other but You or like You in all the earth and in all the heavens.

I magnify Your Holy and Majestic name! You my God are deserving of all glory and honor.

Your ways are higher than my ways, Your thoughts are far greater than I could ever comprehend!

Faithful Father, You always go before me. Come and lead the way once again.

It’s all about LOVE!

Every week I try to read at least one or two books during the week to keep me in “learning mode”, so I don’t become stagnet in my everyday life…

This week I picked up “Love as a way of Life” by Gary Chapman.

Wow, I feel very inspired and challenged … Here are the catagories:

Kindness, Patience, Forgiveness, Courtesy, Humility, Generosity and Honesty

The Holy Spirit was very much speaking to me as I read these chapters and challenging me to go out of my way more often to reach out to those around me, ESPECIALLY those who have nothing to give in return,

Here in Colorado Springs, I am surrounded by military wives/mom’s most of whom have husbands deployed overseas. I don’t even know where they all came from but suddenly they are in my life and I have felt that I am supposed to reach out to them even though I am clueless without the help of the Holy Spirit’s leading.

One of those is the family I work for, I have asked God over and over to show me specific ways I can serve my boss in ways that she needs and God has been faithful to give me the grace and strength to do that.

Another one that I have not been so faithful with is a younger military wife I know, she is 22yrs old and I have found myself frustrated because she does not know Jesus and most every word that comes out of her mouth is negative and complaining. So, I started avoiding her phone calls and feeling annoyed when she called me continuely for friendship. As I read this book I realized how selfish I have been and that I was being conditional with my friendship and love for her.

I immediately called her and asked her if I could take her to breakfast yesterday. I asked her forgiveness for not being a very faithful friend and I felt God’s smile as He helped me to not only look to my needs but to reach out to someone that really needs to know Him.

Of course the scripture passage that keeps running through my mind is 1 Corinthians 13 — especially the line: …but if I have not love, I have nothing.

And love can only be found through relationship with Jesus, as He pours His love into me and I take the time to receive it from Him, I then can give away LOVE. But I am realizing that if I am not in close relationship with Jesus and try to manufacture love of my own good deeds that I will will undoubtedly burn out. I can only give away what I have been given. THEREFORE! It is vital that I am in the word, listening to the Holy Spirit and receiving so that my cup is overflowing into others lives.

John 15: 9“As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. 10If you obey my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have obeyed my Father’s commands and remain in his love. 11I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete. 12My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. 13Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends. 14You are my friends if you do what I command. 15I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you. 16You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit—fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. 17This is my command: Love each other.

I give you a new commandment: love one another. As I have loved you, so you also should love one another. This is how the world will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another.”
John 13

Poolside Ministry

This morning I was at the pool with my two little girls I take care of, one was swimming and the other asleep in the carseat. I decided to pick up again a book a friend lent to me recently. It is called “The Shack” by WIlliam Young.

I had barely opened to the page I last left off when the Holy Spirit spoke to me quickly “Go tell that lady on the other side of the pool that she needs to read this book”. I was a little taken back since I had never met her but had seen her there daily as well. Before I chickened out I quickly got off of my chair and went to where she was sitting.

Feeling a little goofy I told her, “I don’t know why but I just felt like that I need to tell you to read this book, would you be interested in reading it if I brought you a copy with me tommorow?”

She asked me what it was about and I really couldn’t even tell her since I only began it recently myself.  She agreed that she would read it if I brought it, I don’t even know what happened next but suddenly I was telling her that God is going to give her favor with a situation she has going on, and that He is extending the septor to her and no matter who fights against her they will not suceed with their attacks.

Instantly that opened the door and she proceeded to tell me of how her son was murdered a year ago, she went through a divorce in the last year, she is head over heels in debt and on and on. She said also that she has even been calling around to churches this week just looking for someone who will pray with her.

After listening for a while, I told her ” I know I am much younger than you but I would love to pray with you and spend time being a support system for you”. She agreed right away and we kept talking for at least thirty minutes. At one point she said she had chills from the things I was saying because it was exactly what she had been praying right before I walked up.

I was impacted by this encounter as well because I realized the desperate need to listen to the Holy Spirit and to immediately respond when He says to GO. Most of all I was moved with the compassion and love that I could feel God had for this lady.

Before I left I gave her a hug after she had just told me she has NO ONE at all to pray with her or even be her friend. She was so receptive to what I had to say and we are going to meet together this weekend and pray.

 

The Lord was reminding me after this situation that there are so many broken people just aching for someone to step out of their comfort zone, reach into their world and just show love. Truly, we are the hands and feet of Jesus and if those of us who are followers of Christ are not doing that, who will?

And most of all He was reminding me that we tend to compartmentalize  where, and when we can minister to people when probably the most effective ministry takes place in day to day routines. Going to the grocery store, hanging out with kids at the pool ect.

This week alone I have met many mothers while I am with the kids swimming, I keep seeing the same thing, people who are lonely, hungry for love, searching for someone who will show them attention. A The most bizarre part is that this club we go to is filled with people who have LOTS and LOTS of money but that isn’t answering the desires in their heart.

I am so grateful the Lord has placed me in this enviroment, and pray that He continues to lead me to be someone that can show compassion and the love of Jesus.

Revelation, Illumination, Inspiration

A few times these last few months I’ve heard the statement saying “I think God is pruning you”…. This was said in the context of explaining some pretty frustrating scenerio’s that have been happening in my personal life.

Because of my lack of understanding about pruning, I felt angry at God and wanted to remind Him in case He has forgotten that I have tried to love Him with my whole heart and that I desire to live a life that brings Him glory.

And then, I took a closer look at John 15

1 “I am the true vine, and My Father is the vinedresser. 2 Every branch in Me that does not bear fruit He takes away;[a] and every branch that bears fruit He prunes, that it may bear more fruit. 3 You are already clean because of the word which I have spoken to you. 4 Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in Me.
5 “I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing. 6 If anyone does not abide in Me, he is cast out as a branch and is withered; and they gather them and throw them into the fire, and they are burned. 7 If you abide in Me, and My words abide in you, you will[b] ask what you desire, and it shall be done for you. 8 By this My Father is glorified, that you bear much fruit; so you will be My disciples.

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The Holy Spirit suddenly opened my mind as I read this scripture this week and I felt the affirmation of the Father speaking truth to this passage as I realized that the only reason a pruning has been taking place is because I have ALREADY been bearing fruit.

I can imagine a conversation between the Father, Son and Holy Spirit taking place as they look at the life of someone who is committed to living a life worthy of the calling. …..We will call this person “Ben”……

Father: “Son! Have you taken note of our faithful servant Ben ? Have you seen how He obeys our commands and have you seen the amount of impact he has because of his obedience to follow us?” “Oh how I love the life that he lives and the way that he honors my name”

Son: “Father, I have also been watching Ben and he has made great strides in his life, bearing fruit and bringing glory to our name” “Father, I know that he is able to bear even more fruit”, Father! May I cut his branches back so that is capable of handling more and bringing us even more glory with the life that he lives so faithfully?”

Holy Spirit: “I will go to Ben and bring him comfort and encouragement during the pruning process, I will bring him hope and strength to allow us to complete this task that You, Father may be glorified and that many more souls would come into the kingdom through this life lived faithfully. And I will continue to remind Ben of the things you have spoken Father, I will let him know that it is because of your great love that you “strip away” and “cut back” some branches so that the fruit that is already there may be multiplied!”.

….. In my mind previously, when I heard the word prune, I felt that it was somewhat of a slap across the face, as through I had failed in some way and this was the punishment. That is a direct life from the accuser of the brethern and when the Holy Spirit revealed truth to my heart I was about to start jumping up and down in excitement!

To know that I have the Father’s acceptance and approval is the driving motivator of my life. It carries me through days when I fail as a believer, when I do not represent the Father well. When I know deep in my heart that I can come to the Father and ask His forgiveness and KNOW that He sees the motivations in my heart and that he extends forgiveness and wipes the slate clean again…. I can walk with my head held high instead of bowed down in shame, and most importantly I can be a voice to tell others of this great love.

This leads me to this other passage while on this subject: Hebrews 12: 5-11
“ My son, do not despise the chastening of the LORD,
Nor be discouraged when you are rebuked by Him;
6 For whom the LORD loves He chastens,
And scourges every son whom He receives.”[a]

7 If you endure chastening, God deals with you as with sons; for what son is there whom a father does not chasten? 8 But if you are without chastening, of which all have become partakers, then you are illegitimate and not sons. 9 Furthermore, we have had human fathers who corrected us, and we paid them respect. Shall we not much more readily be in subjection to the Father of spirits and live? 10 For they indeed for a few days chastened us as seemed best to them, but He for our profit, that we may be partakers of His holiness. 11 Now no chastening seems to be joyful for the present, but painful; nevertheless, afterward it yields the peaceable fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it.

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I think also it’s important to have the correct theology of God’s heart towards us as children of God. He is not angry or mad or perpetually unhappy with us! Yes, the bible tells us that His anger lasts for but a MOMENT but his favor lasts a LIFETIME!

Here’s what Hebrews 4:15-16 says:

For we do not have a High Priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses, but was in all points tempted as we are, yet without sin. 16 Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need.

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Personally, I know that I desire with all that I am to live a life that is pleasing to my heavenly Father, and that yet the flesh still rises up some days and I make mistakes. So I think the process that happens with alot of us is the the accuser comes to remind us of our shortcomings and try to cause us to think that the Father is angry and that when He looks at us He just remembers all the things we have done wrong. Nothing could be further from the truth! If we confess our sins He is FAITHFUL to forgive us of our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. So when God looks at us, He sees His son Jesus, He sees righteousness!

——1 John 4:18 –There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves punishment, and the one who fears is not perfected in love.

As someone who has struggled immensely with listening to the lies of the enemy and believing that I had to EARN God’s approval and love, this is one subject I really understand. God has been setting me more and more free and it has been the TRUTH that is setting me free. These are truths that are all really interwoven because one thing leads to another and the foundation is : GOD IS LOVE, it’s just who He is.

While I was still lost in my sin, He sent His son to die for me. Therefore it’s not contingent upon what I can or cannot do. God is not man that can lie or change His mind, He says “I AM that I AM”. . .. This is the difference between living under the law or living under grace. I chose Grace.

One last verse I want to throw in before ending this.

Psalms 105: 17 He sent a man before them—
Joseph—who was sold as a slave.
18 They hurt his feet with fetters,
He was laid in irons.
19 Until the time that his word came to pass,
The word of the LORD tested him.

—————-As we are in a season of pruning and God bringing His refining fire to a lot of our lives, it seems it’d be easy to lose sight of our dreams and begin to question the faithfulness of God concerning so many promises He has made to each of us.

We MUST remember the life of Joseph and know that God will not give us more than we can handle, and this is on both ends of the spectrum! He will not give us to much success that it would cause pride to enter our hearts, He will not allow us to be too pruned or too tested that we would die of discouragement. He knows the perfect formula for each of our lives and most importantly He knows our destiny and the paths we will each take. So until the day that the promises of God come to pass, in God’s faithfulness and goodness He will allow us to be tested and tried that we might come forth as GOLD REFINED!!!

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